Do You Like Watching Others Fail?

While an admirer of Tiger Woods’ golfing prowess, I was never a fan of the man. I obviously didn’t know him, so my judgment was based on the standoffish way that I thought he interacted with fans and fellow competitors. Additionally, I felt that the media fawned over him while ignoring other golfers. Subconsciously, I was probably jealous that everything he touched seemed to turn into gold.

Those opinions were challenged when my wife and I recently watched the HBO documentary “Tiger,” which examines the life and career of one of the all-time best PGA golfers. The documentary told the story of a relentless competitor who meticulously prepared himself for a legendary career, while living a flawed double life which cost him his marriage and put him through a personal nightmare.

I remember when Tiger crashed his vehicle on the night of Thanksgiving 2009, and the public learned of his double life. In the media frenzy that followed, his rampant adultery became headline news for weeks, and was fodder of many comedians and talk-show hosts. We couldn’t get enough of the downfall of a champion who many of us praised and supported on his way up. The media knew this, and they fed our appetite.

I cringed while watching the documentary examine the public’s obsession with Tiger’s comeuppance, because I was part of it. I smugly consumed the media surrounding the story, enjoying seeing someone who appeared super-human suddenly become human.

Tiger’s personal life should be of little interest to me or any other casual sports fan, and if he experiences a personal crisis, I surely shouldn’t delight in watching his struggle, but I did, and I wasn’t alone.

Unless you are a saint, you have probably enjoyed watching someone stumble and fall. Maybe a casual acquaintance who once made more money than you has fallen on hard times or the popular kid in high school now seems to be professionally and personally adrift. Perhaps someone from a family who seems squeaky clean runs into legal trouble or the kid who plays in front of your kid has a bad game.

Likewise, unless you haven’t accomplished anything, it’s likely that someone is jealous of you and secretly snickered when you experienced difficult times. It’s a phenomenon so common that it seems like human nature, but why?

I hit the internet to learn a little bit more about this phenomenon, and learned that there is actually a term for it, schadenfreude, and that it is indeed very common. (Why We Enjoy Seeing Other People Fail)

To summarize my brief research: unless we are completely comfortable with who and where we are in life, the success of others can make us feel inferior. When we feel inferior, watching successful people struggle can temporarily assuage our fragile egos, but that’s a terrible way to make ourselves feel better. What’s more, the instant remedy that schadenfreude offers is dependent on the failures of others, instead of our own successes and optimism.

It’s much better to have compassion for others, even when we might be jealous of their success. Like Tiger, most successful people have worked hard and sacrificed for their achievements. Rather than resenting their success, we should be celebrating, admiring it and even trying to emulate it.

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Ways to Make Yourself Happy and Hopeful in 2021

Toward the end of 2020, I saw and heard many people eager to leave 2020 behind, and given the ugliness and frustration that happened last year, it’s easy to understand why. What wasn’t easy to understand though was the fantasy that we would awake on January 1, and everything would be OK. Things are only OK when we decide that they’re OK.

We lose control of our destinies when we tie hope and happiness to turning the calendar page, the election of our preferred candidate or something else over which we have no control.

To control our destinies, we must make ourselves happy and hopeful, and that requires constant attention and effort. To do that, these are the things I remind myself daily.

You are not responsible for, and in most cases, not affected by, the world’s problems. I know that can sound ignorant and naïve, but I see a lot of people walking around thinking that the world is ending. Yes, we have seen better days, but we have also seen darker days. We can’t be happy if we internalize problems that are beyond our control or those that don’t directly affect us. To determine if you’re unintentionally doing this, consider what is bothering you and if you can do anything about it. If you can’t do anything about the problem, move on.

Leave negativity behind. This includes negative influences, thoughts and even people. You can’t live a long and healthy life while consuming a toxic diet. When you’re feeling negative, look at what is happening around you. Is your social media jammed with negative news and snarky comments? If that’s the case, take a break or prune the negative content from your feeds. Are there people around you who spend most of their time and energy spreading negative ideas? If you can’t redirect them, move away from them.

Exude positivity. Positivity, like negativity, often ricochets and comes right back at you even faster. It’s a lot more pleasant to be hit with a smile and kind words than with a scowl and bitter complaining. Positive people stand out. Greet those around with a smile and encouraging words. When someone casually and instinctually asks you how you’re doing, use that opportunity to exude positivity. Instead of a blah response like “fine” or “good,” respond with something memorable, like “awesome,” “incredible,” or “blessed,” and say it with energy and a smile. No one is really expecting an honest response, so don’t feel guilty if you overstate your mood. You’re looking for that positive ricochet, not a medal for honesty.

Focus your thoughts on your blessings, not on your problems. I just spent the last three days trapped in my house, because the world outside is covered in a wintery mess that would likely drop me in my tracks if I dared to take a step outside. I was frustrated that I couldn’t go to the gym or anywhere else, but rather than focusing on that, I thought about all that I could enjoy and accomplish within my four walls, and I reminded myself that the situation was temporary. That made being shut in a lot easier to accept.

Lastly, control what you can control, and accept that you can’t control everything. You can’t control the weather, the economy or the politics of the world, but you can always control your effort and your attitude, and in most cases, that’s enough.

As you know by now, January 1 wasn’t much different than December 31. In fact, the first couple of weeks of 2021 looked a lot like the most challenging weeks of 2020. Shrug that off, and remind yourself that you survived the adversity that last year presented, so you have a history of success when facing trying times. If you do that and take a proactive approach to your happiness and hopefulness, 2021 can be your best year yet.

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2020 Vision

Like many of you, I occasionally struggle to remain positive, and when that happens, it’s usually because I’m focusing on the wrong things. I’m looking down when I should be looking up or I’m looking for affirmation to feed the negative thoughts in my head.

That was the case in 1994, on a steamy summer morning in Washington, DC. I was walking to the Metro station to catch a train to my job downtown, and though we lived on Capitol Hill that summer, the novelty of living in such a fascinating place had worn off weeks earlier.

A couple of blocks into our six-block walk, my wife suddenly said, “I just love mornings in the city. Everyone seems so happy and eager to get to work.” That stopped me in my tracks, because I saw exactly the opposite. My mind was fixed on the dead rats I saw in the gutter and the stressed, absent looks I saw in the faces of strangers who seemed to be going in all different directions, everyone rushing to keep up with their individual agendas.

“What the <heck> are you looking at?” I asked in exasperation. We both saw the same things, but Lynda was able to filter out the negative while I was fixated on it.

I thought of that scene this week, as I looked back at the past year. While, it’s tempting to look at 2020 and focus on the negatives, like I did back in DC 26 years ago, it’s much healthier and more productive to look away from the dead rats in the gutter and look for the smiling faces in the crowd.

When we let negative circumstances fill our heads, they crowd out optimism, hope and gratitude. When optimism, hope and gratitude are pushed aside, we lose our perspective. When we lose our perspective, we let outside forces determine our happiness.

Obviously, it has been unusually difficult to maintain proper perspective in 2020, as media, both traditional and social, has repeatedly led us to believe that pandemics and politicians control our fates. They don’t. While we can’t escape the influence of both in our lives, we control much more of our destiny when we control our perspectives.

Lynda’s observation was a wake-up call for me that day in DC. I had lost my perspective. My trips to and from the office that summer had become merely something that I had to endure, like much of 2020 has been, when they should have been stimulating. Rather than looking up at the US Capitol and Supreme Court building, and appreciating where I was in the world, I was counting dead rats in the gutter. Instead of looking for positives in the people I encountered, I was looking for ways to discount them.

It’s not that the rats and loneliness of a city crowd weren’t there, but they weren’t alone. I just needed to look up and have the proper perspective.

If we’re looking for reasons to be hopeless and frustrated, we can find them much more easily these days; however, with so much negativity around, like flowers in a feedlot, positives should be easier to distinguish too. We just need to train our eyes to use the 2020 vision that this unique year has given us.

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Use Gratitude to Overwhelm Frustration

I had owned my new truck for more than four months, and the odometer showed just 1280 miles, when I went to the gym for the first time in 53 days, back in May. Due to COVID19, I hadn’t driven in nearly seven weeks, and it felt good to be behind the wheel.

Shortly into the trip, I got caught at a railroad crossing that rarely sees trains. I’m somewhat ashamed to admit that I typically curse aloud and ponder taking a side street, when a train interrupts my trip. That day, I did neither. Instead, I rolled to a stop and looked around at surroundings I hadn’t seen in weeks.

Gratitude overwhelmed frustration, as I took a moment to enjoy the new car smell and luxury surrounding me, and to appreciate the beauty of that May day. I noticed houses, landscaping and fences that were probably there months ago, but that I had previously driven by, too preoccupied to notice. Once the train passed, a slow driver led me over the tracks and his pace caused me to miss a green light. Normally, I’m frustrated when this happens, but I was oddly calm this time.

I felt like a triumphant general entering the gym. The front desk staff checked my temperature and briefed me on the new procedures designed to make exercising as safe as it could be. That was awkward, but I didn’t care. I was finally able to exercise in a familiar setting in a familiar manner. My workout regimen was more difficult than I remembered, and I struggled with weight that moved easily just a couple of months earlier, but again, I didn’t react negatively. Gratitude overwhelmed frustration.

Back home, I discussed my workout with my son who COVID19 forced home from college weeks earlier. The novelty of “being back” had worn off for him weeks before, but he didn’t react negatively. He was thankful to have a comfortable and familiar spot to live during this weird time, and we were all thankful for the unplanned extra time we were able to spend together as a family. Gratitude overwhelmed frustration.

Frustration is something that nearly everyone, regardless of their station in life, has felt in the past few months, and I’m no different. My business has slowed. Travel and other recreation that I had eagerly anticipated have been put into question. I scrutinize family spending more than I have in a long time.

I also scrutinize my blessings more than I have in a long time. Though I am, by nature, a grateful person, small blessings, like driving, still often take a backseat to a hectic day’s activities and obligations. Now, I lean on those blessings to focus my mind in the right direction.

If our minds focus on frustration, our thoughts, words and actions follow. If we don’t consciously disrupt that cycle, frustration begins to overwhelm gratitude, when exactly the opposite should occur. Instead of fretting over cancelled plans, we should breathe in the air and look for beauty around us. Rather than grumbling about new, temporary ways of doing our favorite things, we should be grateful to be out and about. Use gratitude to overwhelm frustration.

I’ve been back to the gym many times since that first voyage back in May. With my routine re-established, it’s tempting to overlook the blessings around me. Unfortunately, frustration persists, and it doesn’t appear that it will go away quickly. Fortunately, I have gratitude to help me though, and I hope that it will do the same for you.

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How Scared Should I Be?

My long jump career ended as quickly as it began, at a church camp that my parents made me go to when I was 16. We were in the woods in Western Nebraska, and we needed to cross a creek for dinner that night. The safe play was a bridge, but several of the guys decided instead to jump the creek, so I followed suit, until gravity and a lack of momentum stole the moment. Near enough to the opposite edge to grab some weeds, I was able to pull myself up, but only after plunging my lower half in the rushing water.

Like many of you, I had been subject to the “if everyone was jumping off a bridge” peer-pressure parable, but I was never much good at listening and even worse at being scared. I learned at an early age that, if f I let fear be a barrier to living, I wasn’t going to do much living.

I thought about my long jumping experience recently when watching President Trump talk about his experience with COVID-19. Unless you have been living in a hole, you know that the President largely shrugged off his brush with the virus, much to the consternation of the mainstream media. They wanted him to frighten people, in order to save people.

I’m not going to opine on what President Trump should or should not say or how you should approach COVID-19 – it seems like that’s been done ad nauseum – but I do want to share some thoughts on living with fear.

Because of the disability I’ve been blessed with, for much of my life, I’ve been told that I should be afraid of doing things that able-bodied people do with minimal concern. Riding a motorcycle is dangerous enough, why risk it? You probably shouldn’t go out in this weather. What if that bear you’re hunting decides to hunt you?

That concern almost always comes from people who care about me and don’t want me to put myself in jeopardy. (It must be extremely frustrating to care for me!) I hear these concerns, but I weigh following them against what I would have to sacrifice to do so. If the threat is manageable, and it doesn’t affect anyone else, and my desire is strong enough, I put living my vision ahead of living in fear.

COVID-19 has definitely tested that mantra. In the early days, when fear and precaution were nearly universally accepted, I played along. I avoided socializing. I minimized trips away from home. I nearly washed the prints off of my hands. It felt uncomfortable, but necessary and responsible. As time passed, however, it started to feel like fear had become a barrier to living. I needed to regain my active lifestyle, and all of the gym and socializing time that fed my soul.

I still worry about what an infection could do to a guy like me whose legs barely get him around, but those legs need time in the gym, and the guy that they carry around needs time with his family and friends.

Again, I’m not trying to tell you how to protect yourself from getting infected. That’s a personal decision that only you can make. However, COVID-19 isn’t the only threat we face. While we’re hiding from each other, bigger problems could be brewing. Don’t let fear be a barrier to the life you want to live, because we never know how much of that we have left.

Though my long jump attempt back in 1986 was probably ill-advised, I’m glad that I did it. Walking across a bridge isn’t really living when jumping the creek is an option.

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Don’t Be Forced to Change

When my gym closed a couple of months ago, I was forced to change, and like many of you, I don’t like change. I had been going to the same gym, using the same equipment around the same people since 2003, and though it might not have been perfect, I was perfectly content to stay in my routine. That just wasn’t an option.

When they closed the former location, the owners bought another facility, and transferred memberships there, but my new trip was considerably farther than I wanted to drive, and except for a few familiar faces, the new gym was almost completely foreign to me. I didn’t know how to use some of the machines, and even when I figured out how to use the equipment properly, I didn’t know how much weight to load. Because I had spent so much time at my old gym, I even knew how to structure my workout to minimize time between stations, but I struggled to do that at the new gym. Nothing seemed right or comfortable.

I grumbled about a lot of things during my first few trips to the new facility, but the grumbling was misplaced. There was nothing wrong with the new gym; it just wasn’t the old gym, and that’s why I was frustrated. I didn’t want to change.

It’s ironic that someone like me, who works as a recruiter and encourages people to consider professional changes, is so resistant to change himself, but I also think that it’s human nature to cling to familiarity and the security and predictability it provides. It’s why we don’t take chances on new careers, relationships or changes in lifestyle. Resistance to change can stifle us this way, if we’re not careful.

Strength training is a perfect example of how resistance to change can stifle growth. If you routinely perform the same exercise with the same weight, you can get really good at lifting that weight and building the affected muscles, but only to that point. To lift more weight and build more muscle, you have to change up your workout routine with new weights and new exercises – exactly what I was resisting doing.

The same holds true in our careers, relationships and lifestyles. If we don’t step out of our comfort zones, at least occasionally, we get stuck in a rut that keeps us from reaching our true potential.

I had done that with the old gym to which I clung stubbornly for more than 17 years. When they closed the doors there for the final time, that gym was nowhere near optimal. Both the members and the employees were great, but the equipment and facility had fallen into disrepair. Still, I drove past nicer and newer facilities on my way there, because I didn’t want to change.

Finally, forced to change, I tried to adapt to the new facility, its equipment and the drive it required for me to get there. Ultimately though, I learned that the drive was unsustainable, and I realized that the parking situation would likely be troublesome during winter weather, so I decided to check out a newer gym that required less than half the travel time and had parking right by the front door.

My new gym is smaller and less crowded than the other two gyms, but I still find myself wishing that I was back in my old routine. At the same time, I also realize that I’m training my muscles in ways that they haven’t been trained in 17 years, and I’m beginning to see the results. I’m stronger than I was when I left the old gym, and those gains have made me more eager for my workouts.

Change is an important part of life; it helps us learn new things about ourselves, and it helps us grow. Change often comes with challenges, and those challenges can seem greater when we didn’t choose to change. When we’re forced to change, it’s natural to resist, but after a while, it’s much more helpful to find the bright side and focus there.

I encourage you to pay attention to the voice in your head that tells you that you need to change, and not to wait until you are forced to change. Something better can be just around the corner, and the longer you wait to change, the longer you’ll need to wait to enjoy the results.

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Using Facebook’s ‘Snooze for 30 Days’ Option

The Internet in our house was exceptionally slow a few weeks ago when I got up early and decided to check my Facebook feed. Because our connection was troublesome, my feed struggled to load and only sporadically spit out images. As I impatiently waited and grumbled, I began to realize that what I was waiting for was not worth the wait.

Facebook, as well as a lot of social media, has become a repository of negativity, anger and outrage. It seems that each side has decided to amp up the vitriol and that they’re racing each other to the abyss.

The reward for my wait that morning was a flood of mostly unoriginal political memes that my friends had shared since I last logged on. That’s not what I was looking for, and it wasn’t a positive way to start my day, so I tried an experiment. I utilized the “Snooze for 30 days” option that Facebook makes available to help users manage what they see on their feeds.

I had used that option before with people with whom I am loosely connected and whose postings were particularly excessive or bitter, but this time was different. This time, I snoozed some close friends, even those whose beliefs closely align with mine.

It’s not easy to snooze a close friend, but I made no exceptions. If you posted something political that you did not create – no matter where on the spectrum that posting fell – I snoozed you. Unfortunately, that means that I also don’t see your family pictures or any positive news that you might want to share. I thought about that as I clicked the snooze option, but I had reached a tipping point. I wanted my Facebook feed to look like it did years ago – filled with pictures of smiling people and updates from people I don’t get to see often enough.

Snoozing people doesn’t mean that I care about them or respect them any less. I understand that they probably don’t post with ill intentions, and I respect their right to share whatever they want. I can handle political debate. I just don’t want to have to sift through it to find the content I want to see.

For thirty days, I enjoyed a condensed Facebook feed, and I didn’t feel uneasy after scrolling through it. I didn’t see anger and bitterness in images that others thoughtlessly shared. I saw pictures of family and friends, mixed in with humor and the occasional recipe. Facebook felt like sitting around a table, looking at photo albums and exchanging ideas, rather than like walking into a shouting match.

The difference when the 30-day snooze ended was stark. The content I had avoided began showing up on my screen, and it bothered me even more, now that it disturbed the peace I had rediscovered.

You don’t have to live like this, virtually or in person, and you don’t have to be on Facebook to “snooze” negativity. If certain people or social situations bother you, do something about it. Redirect the conversation or avoid altogether those whose words and actions irritate you.

If you frequently and thoughtlessly share unoriginal political content on social media, consider what you are accomplishing and at what cost. A few years back, I did the same thing and lost some Facebook friends over it, and I highly doubt that I changed anyone’s mind. It’s just not worth it.

It’s unfortunate that we live in a deeply divided society, but I am hopeful that we can come together and find happiness, if we don’t participate in the division.

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Live Like You’re Happy To Be Here!

The people who park around me at the gym are some of the happiest and most grateful people I’ve met, and I look forward to the almost daily positive and pleasant interactions I have with them. I just wished that they lived longer.

I’ve been a member at the same gym for nearly 17 years, and have seen it happen many times over those years. It happened again a few weeks ago. Bob was a regular at the gym, and I often saw him at mass too. When I hadn’t seen him for a few weeks, I didn’t think much of it. It’s not uncommon for people, especially older people, to sit out for a while with a medical challenge. That wasn’t the case with Bob, as I learned of his passing in the local newspaper.

Death isn’t something that we discuss where I park. No one dwells on it, though we’re likely closer to it than most. Instead, we typically talk about what a beautiful day it is, regardless of the weather. Sometimes, we talk about our families and the things that we appreciate. We almost always talk about how happy we are to be there.

As indicated by the blue tags we hang from our rearview mirrors when we park, none of the people who park around me enjoy optimal health. While most are decades older than me, all of us have conditions that make trips to the gym challenging. What’s more, almost all of us remember what it was like to park elsewhere and nonchalantly walk into our destination. Though we know that those days are over, we don’t waste energy worrying about what we don’t have. Instead, we focus on our blessings.

When able-bodied people see us limp, shuffle or roll into the gym, they often expect us to be gloomy downers, but that’s not the case. The grumpy people part elsewhere. We’re happy to be right where we are, despite the challenges we face, because we’ve considered the alternatives.

I sometimes feel sorry for able-bodied people, because many of them haven’t considered the alternatives. When you are aware of those alternatives, blessings come into focus.

Several years ago, when he was still alive, I took my grandfather to Hooters. Always an engaging guy, he was quick to strike up a conversation with our server. During that conversation, he asked her if she enjoyed her job. Shrugging, she said, “I guess so.” With a response that I had to explain to her afterward in an aside, he said, “You’re probably just happy to have a job.”

My grandfather had lived through the Great Depression. During those lean years, when the farm couldn’t support a family and there was little local work to be had, he left home with his brother to stow away on a train to find work in the sugar beet fields of Western Nebraska. My grandfather was 14, and his brother was 16. He not only considered the alternatives, he lived them, and they taught him what it was like to struggle to make a living. Because of that, he considered any job a blessing.

When you face adversity like that, blessings shine brighter. That’s what helps the people who park around me stay positive and grateful. We know that things could be better, but life has taught us that they could also be much worse, and that’s why we focus on the positive.

If you’re fortunate, someday you’ll park where I do. You’ll probably be much older, and you’ll definitely be much wiser, but don’t wait until then to become positive and grateful. Start living like you’re happy to be here.

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Don’t Pull the Alarm Until You Are Sure There’s a Fire

Earlier this summer I attended a birthday party where the guest of honor was given a cane as a gag gift, minutes before I walked in using a cane. It was a little uncomfortable for all of us, but I dealt with it with humor, and the party went on uninterrupted.

My friend had just turned 60, and his friends gave him the cane in good humor, like I’ve seen at similar birthday parties for people who have reached milestone ages. I get it. Though they mean something more to me, canes represent old age to most people. I’m sure that the gift-giver hadn’t considered that someone ten years younger would walk in with a cane.

I thought about that this week, when reading the news about a suspected noose in the garage of NASCAR’s only African-American driver. That “noose” turned out to be a pull rope to close the garage door, and it was there last year, before anyone knew what driver would be in that garage stall this summer. Unfortunately, that misunderstanding didn’t come to light until the sports world was set ablaze with outrage.

I’m in no way comparing canes and nooses. If it was an actual noose put there to intimidate and demean a minority athlete, I would be outraged too, but indisputable evidence shows that it wasn’t. What I am comparing is the rush to judgment and the sudden leap to outrage.

I like to believe that most people are good. Sure, that assumption is occasionally proven wrong, but I want to be absolutely sure I don’t rush to an inaccurate judgment. The cane gift was perhaps insensitive, but I don’t think that insensitivity was deliberate, and even if it was, I can handle insensitivity. People sometimes don’t think before they act and speak. (Sometimes, You Just Have to Laugh and Looking Down on a Wheelchair)

When I first learned of the NASCAR incident, I was skeptical for a number of reasons. When I owned a business affiliated with NASCAR, I enjoyed the benefit of having a garage pass at many races; however, despite what the name implied, the garage pass didn’t give me access to actual garages. Instead, I was able to move around behind a rope with other pass holders. Only people who had a purpose in a garage were allowed to be there. That meant that, if a racial incident occurred, it was perpetrated by someone who had been cleared for such access. Though it could happen, I had a difficult time believing that someone with that very exclusive access would be capable of such a hateful act.

Unfortunately, many others didn’t have such faith in humanity, and they immediately stoked up outrage, which an edgy public quickly adopted.

I was relieved when the truth was revealed, but fear that too many of us are walking around looking for reasons to be outraged. If you are looking for reasons to be outraged, it’s not difficult to find them. All you need to do is look at both mainstream and social media these days. They’re filled with both actual and manufactured reasons for outrage, and it comes from all angles.

To me, outrage is like a fire alarm. Before pulling that lever, we should be reasonably sure that there is a fire. If we pull it often and without enough caution, the alarm begins to lose its effectiveness.

I think that, instead of looking for outrage, we should make a concentrated effort to find goodness, while ignoring the noise of those determined to divide us. That might take a little more effort, but it’s worth it.

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It’s Not as Black and White as You Might Think

A few days ago, after watching a Netflix documentary called, “Heal,” I felt inspired and hopeful about the healing power of positive thought and stress reduction. When I asked my son and wife to watch the same film, they had very different reactions.

My wife is a certified physician assistant, and my son just graduated with a physiology degree and is starting the medical school application process. While they have deep scientific backgrounds, I barely passed Biology 101. While they viewed the documentary with scientific skepticism, I emotionally embraced the theories set forth in it.

Though all three of us have quite a bit in common, our experiences caused us to see what we want to see, while shrugging off alternatives.

A few days later, I watched a local county attorney explain how he made a controversial decision not to charge a business owner who had a confrontation with rioters. Unfortunately, that confrontation ended in the death of one of the rioters, and the aftermath divided the city.

In the press conference, the attorney very carefully presented the evidence he used in making his decision, including surveillance video of the incident, which viewers were able to watch. I had hoped that there was video evidence that could tell a story that justified a decision, one way or the other, and that’s what I saw. I saw a business owner in a high emotional state defending himself from strangers who were attacking him with evil intent.

I watched the press conference on Facebook, which meant that I saw live comments from other viewers, and almost all of them didn’t share my opinion. Later, against my better judgment, I looked on social media to see what others thought, expecting most to agree with me. While a lot of people agreed with me, I also saw some very different interpretations, this time by people I know and respect. That’s when I thought of the different ways that my family and I viewed “Heal.”

I watched “Heal” on the recommendation of one of my friends from the gym. She’s a registered nurse, and we often talk about the benefits of exercise, limiting stress and staying positive. She said that the documentary reminded her of me and our conversations, so I sat down with the remote and the anticipation of seeing something that would reaffirm what I believed. Not surprisingly, that’s exactly what I saw. When the scientific people in my family watched the same film, they picked it apart. Though I knew that their criticism was founded in science, I held true to my interpretation.

The same thing happened in that press conference. I watched the press conference from the perspective of a conservative business owner from the suburbs who is deeply angered by the violence and wanton destruction happening in the city in which I take great pride. With that perspective, I completely agreed with the county attorney’s decision not to press charges. Meanwhile, others watched from far different perspectives and preconceived notions, and they came to a much different conclusion.

I learned from both experiences that things aren’t always black and white – maybe I’m not always as right as I think I am and maybe those on the other side are not always as wrong as I think they are. It’s often hard to see and admit that, particularly when we are so emotionally attached to our beliefs, but maybe, if we could step back and respect everyone’s right to have their own opinions, things wouldn’t get so ugly so quickly, and we would all be happier.

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